as c-major...
(c) miguel

music is different. every one of us comprehend it in his own way, we have different tastes and every one has his own level of musical influence on his everyday life. for some of us it's just a background, for some time of rest, for some - possession.

as a person, who compose a single track in a year on average, i can say, it can seem too weird or ridiculous or too pretentious though, anyway, it appeared that there's no difference between the terms "my music" and "spectrum music" for me. constant struggle with my own ambitions, idleness, simple everyday rotine affection makes me think whether it is really important for me or not and makes me do the choice more often. often hear from different people, that a man like me must think about something else, that i can't do what i want so long, i see many people who don't want to make any attempt to realise themselves, and it makes me sad. moreover, i'm afraid of any thought about living without it, that everything can unexpectedly change in every minute, about broken keyboard (that was fixed by left handed not so long time ago - creet him when meeting at chaos constructions) or about something more serious. at the same time, i understand, that all this are just a little difficuilties on the way of realisation of thoughts that are in my mind. "bu-bu-bu", "tra-la-la" talking with myself and "everything's gonna be fine", "no problem", "cool" for others became a usual way of conversation. sometimes i think that i don't need spectum to be an instrument, that he became, but on the other hand i connect with him from time to time with the only purpose - to catch and to finish anything that flows thru my mind in every minute in a 3 channel and envelope format. i know, he's feeling ok - he stands aside, awaits of turning on, then looks at me while i'm walking in my room from one wall to another listening one single pattern whitten just few minutes ago, rejoices, laughing at me, anf then notices in astonishment my hand, reaching out for a power button... and yesterday i've put a sticker on the case "the x files", so now he has a croos that i can see from the distance.

i don't think i'm the only one. it is amazing for me, when some people can write a lot, often and why do they succeed. i understand, that without such musicians i would be much worse, moreover, i thank them, thanks to europeans for being themselves, thanks for ay and yamaha difficuilties, and also abc and acb and such kind of things. i seldom listen to spectrum music last time, like lone wolf while others associate, send e-mails to each other, exchange their things. i thing i'll devour myself soon, but i suppose, there's a moment for everyone, when there's enough of mm it appears, that many of us see various ways of development of spectrum music as it is, the possibility to realise their ideas on a higher quality level, waiting for something evolutionary new, that will give a strong impulse to many of "stuck" musicians. but i'll say the only thing - there's nothing better than the familiar pro tracker where you can do exactly what do you want. some can think it's ridiculous, but i think that the simplicity in realising your own ideas is the indicator of "intellectual" approach. i won't teach anything here, instruct and ctiticize, i think, someone who can will surely understand what i mean, cos they are very simple.

simple as c-major.