emotional consumerism
(c) elfh

overcoming the wall of alienation, constructed by the stagnant minds and misunderstood by community, this year the speccy demoscene was invaded by drones, philosophical deliberation within denial of selfexistence in this continuum and an endless search of incomprehensible in depth of deferlant subconciousness. for some reason, i thought it could happen in the frontier of a new millennium, but that year we got nothing except a technical breakthrough, that is considered to be important too. and as usual, human mind was found to be inexperienced to that range of a new information. no, i'm not surprised with such a low places of why?, evenless, the source and fuckyouscene got at the latest parties - this is not a candy for the masses and all this system of charts and ranks seems to be borrowed somewhat from pop culture, idolising michael jackson and britney spears. but total absence of reaction speaks for itself. the one thing makes me happy in this kindergarten - fairly deserved first place of a demo, revealing us inner life (or rather the lack of it) and a sad fate of a man, everyone can compare yourself with. and then raise a question: how deep is my cultural wealth? what can i do for the sake of spiritual evolution? i'm still surprised by the appearance of works, doesn't carrying nor deepness, but at last an attempts of emotional or thoughtful exploration. seems like there is none. i can remember unspeakable joy, i got within my first discoveries in this world and i want to get such an experiences now. that is what charming nature of drones and noise gives us. still not mastered by the mankind, the knowledge about alpha, beta and gamma states of human brain was used centuries ago at an intuitive basis. and all this unspeakable and unexplored beauty lies beneath - just stay and try to find out what it hides. take this state of still contemplation like it is, something almost forgotten, but calling, alluring with the answers for the questions, humanity is still unable to solve. and of course, this stands in contradiction to the cornerstone principles of consumerism only products, corresponding to the norms and standards of our putrefying society, could be absorbed.

but back to the parties, points and places. the tendency of appearing the works, beyond standard criteria has formed almost this year. as unbeliever said at the last cafe 'you have your own scene, i don't understand it'. yes, the scene is changing, replenishing, trying to survive. because the old state has proven its dull languor and promises us very sad future. competitive aspect in its old meaning lost long time ago. and this freedom of creativity gives us possibilities to explore, share our discoveries with the world and transfer feelings as some kind of metainformation, unable to be stored at any constructed medium, but eager to be embodied in any available form. and if someone still needs prize places, then there is a necessity in a new rules for the democompo. major sport industry solves this problem easy - various kinds of competitions give participant ability to show his potential. but demoscene is not about sport and even 512bytes intro as a nomination can feature eternity inside. there could be a need for much narrow bounds to limit freedom of ideas and aspiration. or, that is much more preferred, purely creative view at organisation, illustrated, for example, by the last altparty: http: //www.altparty.org/.

but we are still here, tending settled traditions - famous events would be carried out, the voting results would be out of any interest, and winners would stay sad at the prize giving ceremony. and i'm nurturing the dream about appearing of new meetings, where adhering the norms wouldn't be counted as a good behaviour, and sitting within a fire, burned upon the votesheets we would set up ritual dances, surrounded by the sounds of ay chip, outpouring avalanche of low frequency pulsations and crystals of infinite noise.

elfh 02.01.04